I am into camping, travelling when I am able to, building projects when I am able to around the house, collecting stamps and coins, and making new friends. I know I am no angel due to how I was in the past, and what I knew now about the past I lived. I wish I could make some changes, but I don't regret the special moments I treasure so much. Because if it was not for the treasure moments in life. I would have never seen, that I had to change in life. I attend church when I am off from work, or not working late to help catch up, at work. I also love to go fishing when I can find the time, to be honest about that I suck at fishing never been good at it. I was married, but it didn't work out. For some reason, after the 6 months, I kinda felt as if I was no longer welcome her life. She left me in 2009 to be with her sisters best friend, her family never liked me due to how she ran off with me. But when she called me wanting to come back, she said she had sex outside of the marriage. When I learn about that, that was when I knew that she was no longer faithful to me. I knew this was coming, due to how things was going. When she contact me and told me, I felt as if my world ended. When she said she wanted to come home, I advised her that there was a lot to be spoken about. And I felt as if it was, best to be apart from one another. Tell we was able to fix what has happen, she got upset due to she wanted us to get back with one another. But at the same time, I always felt down inside that once I heard about what she did. What love I had for her was over, and I was not able to fix this. Unless we live apart to, be sure that there was another chance. After what she said and was done, I was no longer able to take her back. I don't blame her or her family, what I blame is the temptation she had. That lead her heart away. Due to my past I kinda had a feeling that she, would start to look around. I know I screwed up every, great chance that came my way. And lord knows that if i can change it all I would, but than again I would not have meet my ex-wife. Even though she cheated on me, I can't say nothing bad about her, because temptation was the issue that lead her. The path she follows, now. I turned to god, back in 2004 when my life was going down to hell, from what I was feeling. Friends I thought where friends where not, and friends that where friends. Left me and turned there backs on me, before I even know. I might still have a hand, full of friends that stayed loyal to me. But I am grateful for that, but I still wish the friends I lost would understand I changed and want another chance. And I don't blame them for the decisions they made. To be honest I might of done the same thing, if I was in there shoes. My divorce was final in 2011, when I had to find my ex-wife. To make it final, when I did. I felt happy, because I was no longer part of her life. I am a Hispanic male, and I love to learn about a few things every now and than. I might have, a hard time finding someone true in life. But at the same time I wish, I was able to see the path of finding her in life. I am heart broken and hurting, for the actions of the decisions I made in life. I know I am paying for it, over time. But at the same time, I wish I would see my special girl in life.
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