Not Sure of

I am not sure of why I feel this way, for some reason I still feel as if I am alone and not sure why.I know I done wrong in my past, and I have learned to live with it. But for some reason, for the demons I created for myself. The haunting of what I go through each day, does not seem to be within me. I admit to the actions of being selfish and not knowing what I was doing at one time, maybe I was to selfish to see what I was doing. But to be honest, trying to make it with the faith I have now. At times I wonder, if I am being punished for the actions of how I use to be. I just hope that within time, a second chance to do what is right. Would allow me to provide something, I been dreaming for a long time now.