Come slip pass the darkness you know its hiding light. You thought it exposed your secret passion. That comes only during night. The winter is so lonely my tiredness is wearing me thin. Stare the complexity in my eyes how i was made how i was designed i wish i could be so simple and believe in the simple things. Its just so hard for me. Please believe me. I wrote you these letters i never sent my key is in them they still lay under my carpet. Please forget me i know what i do to upset you i know you pray for better weather. I just hate the disappointment in your eyes. In my head im in cloudy weather trap and tangled together to have voice is the only way out. But i left that underneath the carpet at the old house.
Maybe someday they will find it read it out loud and we'll finally be out of this cloud. A suicide sounds so perfect but I'm not sure if I can take that route I have to many people I care deeply about. I want to show them not have it be something they read about
Im caught in the wind in a spiral im in the ocean swimming and drowning from ocean to ocean. The cliffs the ledges arent high enough for me to have time to ask for his forgiveness. Winter such perfect weather this scorching heat makes me so tender and beats me down and brings me down all because of what ive seen happen and heard in a old house

I'm somewhat of an anime nerd. I've watched a bunch of shows on Netflix, Crunchyroll, and Funimation.

My two biggest fandoms right now are for Black Butler and Attack on Titan. I have a decent Bardroy blog on Tumblr and a Hanjii one that I just started. My current pic (if it's the black and white one) is me trying to imitate Hanji's look. I want to cosplay one of these days!

i wonder if the world is ONLY against me. I wonder, am i the cartoon that gets to walk around with a storm cloud constantly over my head? The second something gets good, its already bad again. When i find someone i feel i can trust, they never cease to proove me wrong. I hate to bitch, but...wtf. Why me?

I miss this kind of stuff! I used to keep a regular blog on myspace. Perhaps I'll do the same on here.

Her Whisper Is the Lucifer~~~


Kekekek Oh man this place it exciting I hope I meet awesome people.

Social crave jjang!~

Annyeong ^^

have you ever had a good day where you just woke up in the morning and it's a beautiful day to go outside and go do something for yourself will that the day for me I do know what I'm going to do for myself yet for my blog today message is go do something for yourself no matter what it is but make it something good that for yourself on this beautiful day

Its nice to know that after all the pain and heartache i have been thru all my life that i have finally found somene who trully loves me inside and out who dosnt care how i look in my weight or how i wear my clothes he says he loves me eather way he treats me like his queen and he is my king who has the key to my heart. The way he looks at me makes my heart beat like a song and even when he's not beside me i still hear his voice and feel his gental touch and tender kisses one day i asked him babe do u miss me when your away from me? he told me how can you miss someone when they are always in your heart :) now i know i really have true love.

It’s not gonna change anything. It’s not gonna take the pain away. It just reminds you that your still living. and that one day it will stop hurting so much. One day, you can see them again. Life honestly scares the shit out of me. But if we live our lives always worrying what might happen, then we’re gonna miss it. So cherish the moments. Look at the people you love and make sure you love them with everything you’ve got. and make sure they know it. So if by chance something unimaginable happens…. At least you gave them something better than a goodbye.

First they put away the dealers, then they put away the prostitutes,
then they shoot away the bums and beat and bash the queers.
They turned away the asylum seekers, fed us suspicions and fears,
we didn't raise our voice, we didn't make a fuss; its funny, there was no one left to notice when they came for us.
Regaining Unconsciousness...NOFX

A well-known speaker started off his seminar holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who still wants it...?" Still the hands were up in the air. "Well," he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We may feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special-Don't EVER forget it." If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it may bring. Count your blessings, not your problems.

Racism:

I hate the fact that racism is still a major problem in the world today. The people that hate on others just because of others ethnic backgrounds is morally wrong !!!! Regardless of the color of skin or ethnic background, I believe that all people should be treated with the same amount of respect as the last person. I can pretty much be friends with any one as long as they show me the same amount of respect that I show them. It's unfortunate how high racism is in this world. It's also unfortunate that no matter how much I or a very few people wish for racism to die, I'm afraid it never will :( And that my dear people is what grinds my gears !

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Do You Love Someone With Depression?

If you have a partner or are close to someone who struggles with depression, you may not always know how to show them you love them. One day they may seem fine, and the next they are sad, distant and may push you away. It is important that you know that as a person who is close to them and trusted by them, you can help your friend or partner have shorter, less severe bouts of depression. Mental illness is as real as physical illness (it is physical actually, read more about that here) and your partner needs you as much as they would need to be cared for if they had the flu.

Your relationship may seem one-sided during these times, but by helping your partner through a very difficult and painful affliction, you are strengthening your relationship and their mental health in the long term.

1. Help them keep clutter at bay.
When a person begins spiraling into depression, they may feel like they are slowing down while the world around them speeds up. The mail may end up in stacks, dishes can pile up in the sink, laundry may go undone as the depressed person begins to feel more and more overwhelmed by their daily routine and unable to keep up. By giving your partner some extra help sorting mail, washing dishes or using paper plates and keeping chaos in check in general, you’ll be giving them (and yourself) the gift of a calm environment. (I’m a fan of the minimalist movement because of this, you can read more about that here.)

2. Fix them a healthy meal.
Your partner may do one of two things when they are in a depressed state. They may eat very little, or they may overeat. In either case, they may find that driving through a fast food restaurant or ordering a pizza online is just easier than fixing a meal. Eating like this, or neglecting to eat will only degrade your partner’s health, causing them to go deeper into their depression. Help your loved one keep their body healthy, and their mind will follow. This is a great article that talks about the “Brain Diet” which can help the symptoms of depression, and this article talks about how our modern diet could contribute to the recent rise in depression. Here is a recipe for a trail mix that is quick to make and has mood-boosting properties.

3.Get them outside.
The benefits of getting outside for a depressed person are huge. And it is possibly the last thing on earth your partner will want to do. Take them to be somewhere in nature. Pack a picnic and lie in the sun, take a leisurely hike or plant a garden. Being barefoot in the dirt, or “earthing” helps ground the body and reverse the effects of living in a world of emf’s, and digging in soil can actually act as an antidepressant, as a strain of bacterium in soil, Mycobacterium vaccae, triggers the release of seratonin, which in turn elevates mood and decreases anxiety. Sunshine increases Vitamin D production which can help alleviate depression. My friend Elizabeth wrote an excellent post about Vitamin D and its link to depression here. For more information about other sources of Vitamin D, this is a great post as well as this.

4. Ask them to help you understand what they’re feeling.
If your partner is able to articulate what they are going through, it will help them and you better understand what you are dealing with, and may give insight into a plan of action for helping your partner. Also, feeling alone is common for a depressed person and anything that combats that feeling will help alleviate the severity and length of the depression.

5. Encourage them to focus on self-care.
Depressed people often stop taking care of themselves. Showering, getting haircuts, going to the doctor or dentist, it’s all just too hard, and they don’t deserve to be well taken care of anyway in their minds. This can snowball quickly into greater feelings of worthlessness since “Now I’m such a mess, no one could ever love me”. Help your loved one by being proactive. Tell them “I’m going to do the dishes, why don’t you go enjoy a bubble bath?” can give them the permission they won’t give themselves to do something normal, healthy and self-loving.

6. Hug them.
Studies show that a sincere hug that lasts longer than 20 seconds can release feel-good chemicals in the brain and elevate the mood of the giver and receiver. Depressed people often don’t want to be touched, but a sincere hug with no expectation of anything further can give your partner a lift.

7. Laugh with them.
Telling a silly joke, watching a comedy or seeing a stand up comedian will encourage your partner to laugh in spite of themselves. Laughing releases endorphins and studies show can actually counteract symptoms of depression and anxiety.

8. Reassure them that you can handle their feelings.
Your partner may be feeling worthless, angry and even guilty while they are depressed. They may be afraid that they will end up alone because no one will put up with their episodes forever. Reassure them that you are in the relationship for the long haul and they won’t scare you away because they have an illness.

9. Challenge their destructive thoughts.
A depressed person’s mind can be a never-ending loop of painful, destructive thoughts. “I’m unlovable, I’m a failure, I’m ugly, I’m stupid”. Challenge these untruths with the truth. “You’re not unlovable, I love you. You aren’t a failure, here are all the things you’ve accomplished.”

10.Remind them why you love them.
Look at pictures of happy times you’ve had together. Tell them your favorite things about them. Reminisce about your relationship and all the positive things that have happened, and remind your partner that you love them and they will get through this.

More people need to know this.

This is so incredibly important. I’ve seen people with depression ostracized so many times, and I cannot stress how much it means to each and every person I’ve tried to reach out to after whatever “falling-outs” they’ve had due to depression. Remember to always be compassionate and kind to all friends like this, because you never know what they’re going through.

This is amazing.

(this was something we found on the Interweb - it was not written by us)

I don't know what blog thing so here it go have you ever dresm of something that you want to do but people say you shouldn't do will I give up on dream but not anymore because in november ill be 25 and I feel I like I haven't done what I wanted to do in my life and that was to become a singer so now I'm doing what I can to make that happen so here is the lesson I learn to never give up on your dreams ok