when will i live

These daze seem so long
I dream of a better world
Only to awaken to the same old song
Long daze long nights
Shit it seems like I'm trapped in a whirlpool
Waiting for something to happen
But I'm growing tired for this dream to occur
These daze i don't get enough sleep
Its like I'm walking through a haze
Waiting to feel
But I'm afraid to realize I'm dead
When will i live
I can't take this anymore
I can't keep pretending I'm fine
When the voice inside my head
Keeps yelling at me to let her out
But i gotta keep my sanity
For the people i love
But how long can i keep it up?
A heart once so pure corrupted by society
Heart beats black
How could i go back to being mommy's little girl
I see no bright light at the end of the tunnel
Forgive me god for i have sinned