The Story Of The Have-Not

Ive been looking at such a far away place... until now. Over there- a high out of reach place... Something so bright I could never lay a finger on it. Beyond my bright screen... That’s all I’ve ever looked at. And gradually I came to feel that I was also in there, that I also had something. Whenever I turned the switch on, I could see it. I though just maybe I understood it all. But, I was wrong. In truth, there was no way I could ever actually go to that place. I had nothing, I understood nothing. That’s all I was. The world over there- the world I was used to- was despairingly far from where I currently stood. I had no power to fill that gap... But- I simply couldn’t get away from it, I would never stop trying to go there. I avoided contact that would make me recognize myself as much as I could. I couldn’t meet with people. Communication would make me realize who I was. If I realistically recognized myself, then it would become harder to go over there. Reality and concrete things only got in the way. And- I gradually lost my self recognition... and my existence.

This was something I wrote back when I was a edgy teenager, but alas I look back with nostalgic smiles wondering how different it is now today.