Ever since I was little I have had an interest for things that other girls were not interested in. I loved watching scary movies and anime. I liked performing spells. I never really knew were I fit in with others but I know it was not the social norm that everyone was used to.
When I was in middle school I discovered who I really was and what hobbies and things I was into. I was attracted to victorian and gothic clothing. Things that were not well girly. For the longest time I hated the color pink and I hated dressing as a girl. I wore beanies, t-shirts from the guys section that represented things I liked, baggy jeans, and skater shoes or combat boots. I was referred to as the dude. You know those girls that hang out with guys and the guy just sees them as another dude thats me. Well is still me to this day. Just now I dress more girly. Well girly enough more like girly dark. In over 10 years nothing has changed I still dress pretty much the same just with more girlish clothing. Goth for me was not just a phase its part of who I am. So is nerdy things such as comics, video games, anime, larping, cosplaying, computers, etc. I am a nerd and a damn proud one. I also love reading books. I am almost always seen with a book in my hands.
I am also an active part of the b*sm community and a submissive. I have been in the lifestyle a very long ass time. Its part of who I am. I love submitting to someone and them owning me and being their property. Its so much more then to sex to me. Its a sacred bound between you and that person. You give up control to them. Its animalistic by its nature. I need it like the very air that I breath. I give so much more of my self over to someone then just vanilla dating if you will. I want to give myself over completely to someone when I love them at my most animalistic core.
I adore japanese culture as stated above. And I even go as so far as to cosplay characters I like. My favortite characters to cosplay are Rinoa, Kairi, and Raven Madison.
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