Awe thank you Kat. I hope me talking to this guy whos name is Dan is not going to make her think I'm talking to her guy when I'm not I bet there not even friends or have anything together or something....
Yeah agree with you on that see I know I'm not lying I just wish people could just be happy for me and let me be happy not getting on my bottom for things I am not doing wrong or right. Kat I have to ask you this is it wrong me for to be happy and loved?
Its funny how if I tell both of them I have a guy only one will believe me the other will say I made him or that I am lying well I'm not lying and I did one thing she couldn't do Kat show you are sorry I added Lock and told him I'm sorry and he hasn't replied because he is either busy or shocked that I finally said that to him. Guess what?
Yeah I see the same woman as you. I see how hard it is to leave the house and be like oh no oh no oh no. I just want this to end for good be able to be with my guy who loves me for me and he trusts me. Kat he even told me things that most girls would of said eww gross leave me alone and for me it didn't bug me not one bit actually. You have seen the peaches and smells of that grass area for the backyard right? Its smells terrible if that is the right word to use. Anyways with everything I have been through I still remember that family and friends help us to stand strong and remembering that helps to stand strong even when crying feels like right thing to do. But I can't let this keep hurting me like is I have to be strong and show the world that does bugged me or hurt me and I feel like there is nothing more i can do
Awe Kat I agree with you I really do. I mean its hard on me as it is really to be scared to have my phone on since I use fb on it or my computer because no matter what I do I am the one who gets bullied I could of never spoken to him but still be bullied or have my own relationship still bullied or moved on still bullied. What I do understand is what did I do to be getting this? I have't spoken to him in a long time I've kept my distance and it feels like its stopped but I will never know if it has. Anyways thanks for the words of wisdom you gave me showing me that I have good people in my life. I have friends I have family I have a lot to be thankful for. I never really thought about it before until now its crazy to see all that I have gone through and when my sister comes to visit I am telling her everything about how just one word got me bullied like this because it needs to stop I am done with this and with then as of now they are gone to me I really don't care enough said if people asked me how is he i will say I don't know and i don't care.
Thanks Kat I won't let it so bad because I haven't talked to him he won't use skype or imvu or twitter even he only has meetme and fb. anyways I don't care what he uses personally I just don't want to be so scared telling my sister I can't watch my nephew anymore because I am getting out of here. I already get so scared when I see a jeep of any kind. I feel like I am just in the way of everyone happiness or happy ending or what ever you want to call it. I don't want this to make me loose sleep or be so scared to sleep because if I do I could be gone before I wake up. Anyways I want this to end and be done for good and have just my friends and family and guy in my life not all this its making me feel like crying is the best thing I can do but then I try to write my feelings down thinking that will help me but it doesn't I just need to move on and let my guy and I be happy.
I know what you mean and I don't know why she likes to bully me I feel like the only way it stops for good is if I show them I have a boyfriend and that I am happy with him. I do have a guy in my life who I like more then a friend someone who makes me smile and happy every time we talk. He is a dolphins fan I told him I like the dolphins and thought this bet we made about the game on Oct 9 was a bad idea but I felt like why bet on a team we don't like and he was like good point. Anyways I don't see why she and him can't leave me alone or why she lets him still rp when he has most of my pages on his list and if one of my rp pages talk to him she comes after me saying He doesn't like you he likes me we are getting married get a life get friends when I have friends and a lie and I know he never loved or liked me part of me wants to just give up and be like I have a boyfriend who likes and loves me and wants me to be happy now you can stop and move on with your life. But I will never get the chance and when I do go out I get super scared I will see one them because I walked to the dollar store and back home and its hard for me to be ok with leaving the house.
Kat have you seen me talking to him? I haven't she just cant leave me alone so maybe I need to start rubbing Juan or Ryan in her face but if I did that I would be just like them so I feel like talking to you and Ryan and our friends is better then letting what she did again hurt me she just wants me to either be gone or sad for the rest of my life well im not sad and i don't know him never did so far as I think and feel he is gone and never going to be back in my life again ever.. I am going to make pics of you and me and our friends. Thank you for everything you did for me today talking to me making me feel like i was needed wanted and loved. Love ya sister Kat. ♥ :)
Awe thank you Kat. I see it too and I see one day my dad walking me down the aisle giving me away and me getting married you know what is. I see me finding my cowboy the one guy who will text me and call me and make sure I am ok be there when I need him and when those two add him and tell him things like im using him or i won't ever kiss him and he will say go away you don't know anything my girl will kiss me and isn't using me I love her and I will not let you or anyone else take that way you know defending me showing me that I am special do you see it happening.
